Schooling Bubble, continued.

After a previous post on the education bubble, which I called there the “schooling bubble,” I did a little more research. As a result of this research, I’ve come to some provisional conclusions:

They call it a “higher education bubble,” but I don’t think the bubble is really about higher education.

I think that when we say ‘education’ we mean ‘the thing that increases the likelihood of a (higher) wage’.  Someone is educated if they have a better chance at selling their labor (for a higher price) on the job market.

Right now, four things are true: unemployment is rising, tuition is rising, salaries are staying the same, and the quality of education is falling. This means graduates of our education system–one whose price tag tends to be quite high–don’t have as good a chance at selling their labor (for a high price) on the job market as we think they do (that is, proportionately to education’s price tag).

We disproportionately value the extent to which education can assure us (high) wages. So it’s a bubble. But it’s a wage assurance bubble. (Thanks to Sarah Gallien for the word ‘assurance’. I was using ‘insurance’, but ‘assurance’ is much better suited for the purpose.)

Whether or not you want to call this thing ‘education’ is almost beside the point. (I’d actually prefer to call our education system a wage assurance system. Seems more transparent.)

The wage assurance bubble affects our entire wage assurance system. Kindergarten through graduate school. This is because (public) K-12 still has a cost; one which we typically pay with tax dollars. Tuition at universities also has a cost; one which we pay with both tax dollars and income. The whole thing costs us a certain amount. The point of paying that cost is to assure that people can sell their labor (for a higher price) on the job market. Unfortunately, for whatever reason, we don’t understand the imbalanced relationship between this cost and the actual value of what we’re paying for.

To sum up, this “higher education bubble,” at its empty core, is really a wage assurance bubble.  Given certain economic facts, it turns out that we disproportionately value our wage assurance system (what we call ‘education’) in relation to its actual value.

(As a parenthetical reflection, this whole thing feels like an abomination. I once thought that education was a transformative, near-spiritual process of being human. But now, after reading and thinking about this, I seriously wonder whether ‘education’ is a transformative, adaptive, and life-changing activity. But now I think differently. Either there’s no good reason to call any of that stuff ‘education’; or, if we do use that word, then this process of transformation, adaptation, and change happens just for the sake of wages–not being human. In other words, the etymology of the Greek verb ‘educate’ is ‘to lead out’. There’s been some confusion as to what this means, philosophically. Now I know: for us, it means to lead out into the labor market. Simple.)

Below are some quotations and diagrams, and accompanying links, that contributed to these conclusions.

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Bubbles arise in nature when some sort of film, bolstered by surface tension, contains a pocket of air under greater pressure than the general atmosphere. Bubbles arise in markets when some factor external to the market (usually tax engineering or a regulatory mandate) creates a pocket of concentrated capital in which asset prices rise well above levels that can be justified by the assets’ underlying value.

–Jerry Bower, Forbes Magazine “The Coming College Education Bubble”

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The higher education bubble is a speculative boom and bust phenomenon in the field of higher education. According to the theory, while college tuition payments are rising, the rate of return of a college degree is decreasing,[1] and the soundness of the student loan industry may be threatened by increasing default rates.[2] College students who fail to find employment at the level needed to pay back their loans in a reasonable amount of time have been compared to the debtors under sub-prime mortgages whose homes are worth less than what is owed to the bank.[3]

–Wikipedia

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Well, we have a bubble in education. The costs have escalated by 300 percent, adjusted for inflation, since 1980. The quality has not gone up. So, we’re paying more and more for the same product. And it is something that is a bubble because it’s intensely believed.

It’s taboo to question education and to ask whether people are really getting their money’s worth. And it’s very analogous to the housing bubble. People are told that you have to have an education, it’s indispensable, it’s always valuable. We have subprime education, like we had subprime housing. But it probably is a system that’s gotten to be quite rotten all the way up.”

–Peter Thiel, Interview on PBS, May 2011

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There are few things as fundamental to the American Dream or as essential for America’s success as a good education.  This has never been more true than it is today.  At a time when our children are competing with kids in China and India, the best job qualification you can have is a college degree or advanced training.  If you do have that kind of education, then you’re well prepared for the future — because half of the fastest growing jobs in America require a Bachelor’s degree or more.  And if you don’t have a college degree, you’re more than twice as likely to be unemployed as somebody who does…

And yet in a paradox of American life, at the very moment it’s never been more important to have a quality higher education, the cost of that kind of that kind of education has never been higher.  Over the past few decades, the cost of tuition at private colleges has more than doubled, while costs at public institutions have nearly tripled.  Compounding the problem, tuition has grown ten times faster than a typical family’s income, putting new pressure on families that are already strained and pricing far too many students out of college altogether.  Yet, we have a student loan system where we’re giving lenders billions of dollars in wasteful subsidies that could be used to make college more affordable for all Americans.

This trend — a trend where a quality higher education slips out of reach for ordinary Americans — threatens the dream of opportunity that is America’s promise to all its citizens.  It threatens to widen the gap between the haves and the have-nots.  And it threatens to undercut America’s competitiveness — because America cannot lead in the 21st century unless we have the best educated, most competitive workforce in the world.  And that’s the kind of workforce — and the kind of citizenry — to which we should be committed.

–Barack Obama, April 2009, as he announced the end of FFELP

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UW mentoring program helps dreams come true
By Karen Long, Seattle Times, January 9 2012

One day in mid-December, a purple-clad army of college students prepared to sweep through Renton High School, bringing snacks, drinks and most of all, information.

Laura McDowell marshaled the forces — about 50 University of Washington students — in the school’s counseling center, making sure they were all working on the same thing before they fanned out across the building.

“Have your students go to fafsa-dot-gov,” McDowell rapped out in a commanding voice. “Can anyone tell me what it stands for? Anybody?”

“Free Application for Federal Student Aid,” the students responded, not exactly in unison. Filling out the form is a necessary step to getting financial aid for college.

“Why do you have to fill it out?” McDowell asked.

The response was immediate: “Money!”

The UW students are part of the Dream Project, a 5-year-old mentoring program started by a handful of undergraduates in 2005. Since then, it has grown rapidly, and last year reached 1,300 seniors in 16 high-poverty Seattle-area high schools, many of whom would be the first in their families to go to college.

Recently, it received a $972,000 grant over a four-year period from the Bill & Melinda Gates Foundation.

About 500 UW students participated this past year, spending an hour a week in high-school classrooms to prep students on the SAT or ACT, help them fill out college applications and apply for public and private scholarship money. For those who don’t plan to go to college, the UW students help them think about what they will do when they graduate.

Washington has one of the lowest rates in the nation of college-bound teens — by one count, this state is 46th, with only about half of its graduates going to college directly from high school. The national average is 63 percent, according to the National Center for Higher Education Management Systems.

The Dream Project message: “We’re one, two, three years older than you. We just did it. You can do it, too,” said McDowell, who is a junior majoring in accounting and business administration and is coordinator of the Dream Project at Renton High.

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And here’s a great infographic.

New story at Metazen, 3rd place contest winner.

Metazen picked my story “In the Land of Tongues” as a 3rd place winner for a contest, the proceeds of which went to charity. They published the story yesterday. Thanks Metazen!

Global Tax Code

Okay. I’ve had it. This has been stewing in my mind long enough. I’m just going to say it.

Here’s the deal:  There’s a global market, but there’s no global polity. The UN is a forum for discussion, but not a re-distributor of wealth. It can’t systematically ensure justice. Cosmetically, maybe. As a band-aid polity, at best. But it’s not a polity.  It’s not a government.

Government, among other things, aims to ensure the fair distribution of resources. We live in a world where those in power agree that markets–and their careful political management–are the best way to distribute resources. This dogma is fine, I guess. Whether or not we like it, it’s not going anywhere.

But we need to think more politically in a global market context. Polity must catch up with markets. Injustice reigns otherwise.

We need a global tax code. We can’t have countries going around doing whatever the hell they want without paying into some kind of institution that at least aims to ensure equal distribution of the global social product.

Nations do this, sort of. Unfortunately, in terms of markets, nations haven’t meaningfully existed for some time. The global nation, whose only common culture is price fluctuation and exchange, has existed for a long time, but we haven’t given the strength it needs to play its proper role.

It’s not a question of whether this global nation exists. It’s a question of making it functional so we don’t destroy each other.

What’s does a polity look like for a nation whose culture is price and exchange? A tax code.

Here’s my proposal. It’s called “The Average is Best.”

Using some globally recognized measure of asset value (GDP is probably best), countries should be taxed according to their asset value’s variance from the world median average of that value.

The country with the median GDP pays no taxes. Countries that have more than the median pay a credit to the global polity proportionate to that excessive variance (the difference between the median GDP and the country’s GDP). Countries that have less than the median go into debt to the global polity proportionate to that deficient variance (again, same proportion, only this time it’s a debt, not a credit).

Wealth is redistributed according to the credits and debts: the money that countries over the median GDP pay to the global polity goes toward the debts of the countries under the median GDP. The global polity determines what amounts go to what countries based on other dimensions of need, such as those reported in the Human Development Index. Countries under the median use that money to pay back their debt by the next global fiscal year. If they don’t, the debt rolls over to the next year. Etc.

For example, here is the CIA World Factbook list of GDP by country from 2010. There are 216 countries reporting GDP on this list. The 108th country is Nepal, with a GDP  of US$15,840. The first country is the U.S. with a GDP of US$14,660,000. Here’s how much the U.S. would pay the global polity:

14660000 – 15,840 = US$14,644,160

The second country is China, with a GDP of US$5,878,000. They’d pay the global polity US$5,862,160.

On the opposite end of the spectrum is the last country, Niue. They’re GDP is US$10. Here’s what they owe the global polity:

15840 – 10 = US$15, 830.

Niue owes the global polity $15, 830. The amount collected by the polity from the countries in excess of the median will be funneled to Niue, and countries like it, in order that they may pay their debt. If they can’t pay it by the end of the next fiscal year, their debt rolls over. Whatever they couldn’t pay goes back to the polity. They try again.

There. I said it. What does anyone think?

How did this happen?

Okay. So I’ve taken a break from literary stuff recently to focus on literacy. My own literacy. About finance. The 2008 financial crisis and OWS and everything has gotten me into the general ugliness of bureaucratic things and I want to fucking write about it. I’ve been studying history and economics with a small group of OWSers and at our last meeting we decided to each bring something to the group that relates to the question “how did this happen?” I’m going to bring this blog post. Consider it a term paper. Or something.The first thing we read in our group was part of the 2010 Senate subcommittee report on the financial crisis that came out of Carl Levin’s office. It’s awesome. Particularly the introduction. It says there (among other things) that banks and other financial companies treated their own clients as fucking counter-parties. They took people’s money, said “oh yeah, we’ll help you” and then used it to bet against them to make more money for themselves.Counterparties.

Turns out we encourage this: experiencing other people’s pain as pleasure. Some sadistic shit. Like, your mom gets cancer, can’t work, can’t pay her mortgage, and some meathead in a skyscraper is betting other meatheads (actually, the meathead is watching a machine bet other meatheads’ machines) that your mom won’t make her mortgage payment. The meathead is also buying insurance from other meatheads for himself just in case she does so that even if he loses his bet that your mom’s life will be fucked he’ll be in the black.

Always be in the fucking black. Always.

Our group discussed that for awhile. But then we got interested in how this happened historically. How did this moral horseshit become legal?

A friend mentioned a bill called the Glass-Steagall Act and sent us an article on it. Basically, our economy already went through this whole financial wasteland about 100 years ago (oh yeah, 1929, right…) when banks got into insurance and securities trading and became so big and interconnected with everyone’s money that it was dangerous for everyone. Glass-Steagall, passed in 1933, made it illegal for banks to get into that stuff. Put banking, securities, and insurance in “separate rooms.” But we couldn’t handle that. No. Over the next 60 years we picked at the scab, trying to let banks get big again and make more fucking money. There were commies! Chinese! We had to compete! Buy! Sell! Go! Now! Ahhhhh!

More fucking money. We need that shit. Seriously. Can’t breathe without it.

We finally ripped the rest of the scab off in 1999 when Phil Gramm, voted one of the 25 people to blame for the crisis, got a 90-8 vote in the Senate and a 362-57 vote in the House to full undo Glass-Steagall. He wanted to “modernize” our financial institutions. He wanted to deregulate. So banks could compete.

A few senators had their shit together at the time and basically prophesized what would happen. Byran Dorgan was the most badass, saying that the government would need to bail the bankers out and the public would lose all kinds of money just because some people wanted to make money. He gave this fucking incredible example from the 1987 Savings and Loans crisis:

Let me describe the ultimate perversion, the hood ornament of stupidity. The U.S. government owned nonperforming junk bonds in the Taj Mahal Casino. Let me say that again. The U.S. Government ended up owning nonperforming junk bonds in the Taj Mahal casino in Atlantic City. How did that happen? The savings and loans were able to buy junk bonds. The savings and loans went belly up. The junk bonds were not performing. And the U.S. Government ended up [having to buy] those junk bonds.

Fucking casinos. We have government casinos.
Dorgan went on to say that, around ten years from that moment (1999) we’d probably have to do the same damn thing and it would be the public paying for it…

Now imagine this: as tax dollars are spent buying casinos, hundreds of bank lobbyists pull up to Capitol Hill, the security guards checking their credentials. Citbank lobbyists and Bank of America lobbyists. Merrill Lynch and Morgan Stanley. All in all, $187.2 million from 1989-1999 went to legislators from people who wanted Gramm’s bill to pass. Russell Feingold said, “Lobbyists lined the halls outside the room where the conference met to reconcile the House and Senate versions of bill…that is standard procedure on Capitol Hill.”

Lo and behold, the bill passed 90-8 in the Senate, 362-57 in the house. That’s not just the number of people who took lobbying money and/or cowed to political threats from their PACs and parties and/or thought it was a nice idea to deregulate. That’s all the people in this country who elected these people to do all these things. Those numbers are everyone deciding all together to screw ourselves and everyone else to make some cash. And, let me say, it was the liberals that wanted to keep the old policies in place. Be conservative, said the progressives.

What the fuck does anything mean anymore.

So yeah, the conservative-progressives were right. Ten years went by and we had huge banks getting huger, taking on more risk, and fucking growing until no one knew what the fuck anyone was thinking anymore and the housing crisis happened. The government–which, by the way, is just you and me and everyone we know–bailed them out. And we basically handed Europe a hot steaming bowl of shit and said “Enjoy!” Now the commies really will bring us down. They own so much of our debt–the socialist-commie bastards–that if they fail then so do we.

It’s like we want to fucking die. Reading about this shit makes me think of people who want to kill themselves.

We’re getting to the end of this, I promise. Our OWS group discussed the history behind this ‘counterparty’ stuff with Glass-Steagall, but we still wanted to know: what’s the big idea here? What’s the ideology that makes this policy real? It’s not just legal. It’s not just lawmakers and lobbyists getting together and perpetually thinking to themselves “let’s just try to make a shit ton of money and fuck ourselves and our friends in the process.” There’s a fucking zeitgeist at work here.

The book that I think speaks the truth about the history of capitalism is Karl Polanyi’s The Great Transformation. It fucking rocks. There’s a part in there called “The Birth of the Liberal Creed” where he talks about a debate in the 1830s in England. (England invented all this shit, bee tee dubs.)

After they pretty much fabricated the three basic commodities–land, labor, capital–by looking at the world and saying “Oh yeah, I’m gonna use you real good,” they had things like unemployment and poverty to deal with. They also had these factories that they called the Satanic Mills. Yeah. Satanic Mills.
Anyway, the question in 1830 was: do we keep legislation to help protect people from the market? Is it better to threaten people with starvation and poverty or should we provide some kind of safety net? Should government be a mommy or a daddy?

Thing is, they’d tried that one time. Back in 1782 they tried giving out bread and subsidizing farmlands that got hit hard by price fluctuations. It was called the Speenhamland system. It didn’t work so well. So Edmund Burke and David Ricardo and a bunch of utilitarians cited that failure in the 1830 debate and they decided to be daddies. No protection. No safety net. They conjured images of Robinson Crusoe. Rugged individualism and all that. They amended the Poor Laws to help the “victims of improvement” (poor people) get back on their feet. How?

By not having any Poors Laws and telling them: if you don’t find a job and work and make money for yourself, no one will be here to help you. Sorry.

Polanyi says this was the birth of the ‘bootstraps’ mentality. It’s still around, you know. When people like Phil Gramm try to “modernize” our institutions by deregulating them and unleashing market forces on us while we’re just trying to get through our fucking lives every day–that’s the utilitarians speaking from 1830, being our Cultural Daddy, saying “No one is going to help you. You have to do it yourself. Being human means surviving and taking what you can when you can to provide for yourself and who you care about and fuck everyone else…” Of course this idea goes back to Adam Smith, who said that the division of labor and the social product are what’s most important when running a society; that regulation causes real disorder; that markets and exchanging are “natural” for humans…blah blah blah. The big idea is: it’s better in the long run for everyone if no one helps or cares about anyone unless they make you money.

Anyway. This has gone on too long already–both what you’re reading (if you’re still reading) and what it’s about. I’m still trying to fucking figure it out. If you have any ideas, let me know.

Schooling Bubble

They say there’s an education bubble. Makes sense.  A bubble is when there’s a pocket of capital concentrated in one place where assets are valued disproportionately to their actual value. When you’re in a bubble you think you’re hot, but you’re not. Everyone thought dotcoms were awesome; but they weren’t. Same with mortgage-backed securities, which were made of CDOs and toxic subprime loans. Like in those cases, at some point your bubble bursts. Like when your friend thinks that she’s all that and a bag of chips, you say something like ‘I hate to burst your bubble, but…’

So the question is: how is there an ‘education bubble’; if so, why? and what will happen if/ when it bursts?

Short answer: there’s no short answer. I have to read more. I’m not prepared to say anything yet. I’ve read a few things so far (Forbes, Economist, Chronicle of Higher Ed, n+1, Education Sector), but I need to keep looking into it. My understanding, at this point, goes like this:

A bubble is when assets are valued disproportionately to their actual value. If there’s an education bubble, it means education is valued disproportionately to its actual value. At this early stage in my thinking I want to add the following idea, which doesn’t seem present in the discourse:

Schooling isn’t education. We entrust our schools (primary, middle, high, higher) to educate children, but what happens in these buildings and institutional settings isn’t necessarily educational. We rely on them to reproduce our social norms and maybe even progress them beyond the status quo. But educational experience itself isn’t subject to economic bubbling. Education–transformative learning experience–will always be valuable.

To the extent that schooling insures the citizenry against low wages, our schools–particularly university schooling, since we don’t guarantee it like we do K-12–are vulnerable to bubbling. That’s what we see happening now: we think schooling will protect us from low wages (or bad household income in general). But we’re wrong.

That’s what’s happening. But it’s not an education bubble. It’s a schooling bubble.

 

The Reason America Won’t Change (with thanks to W.H. Auden)

In Europe the rich man and the poor man were thought of as being two different kinds of men; the poor man might be an inferior kind but he was a man: but here the poor man was not, as such, a man, but a person in a state of poverty from which, if he were a real man, he would presently extricate himself. The newly arriving poor…were treated by their predecessors, it seems like freshman by upperclassmen, i.e, subject to a process of ‘hazing’ so as to toughen their character and stiffen their determination to rise to a position of immunity.–W.H. Auden, Preface to Anzia Yezierska’s Red Ribbon on a White Horse

The reason America won’t change
because 1%  of people own everything
is because our country is like high school
the poor are like freshmen
and they see the seniors
who get so many privileges
just because they worked hard for a little while
and waited and suffered
the unpleasantness of beginning
with the hope of someday achieving
the promise
for freshmen it’s graduating
and senior skip day and prom, etc
and for the poor it’s wealth
it’s having that 1%
it’s being a king
because ours is the only country
where anyone can be a king
–not everyone, that’s statistically impossible–
but anyone that wants and suffers
can make it to senior year.

Why would freshmen ever give up
the chance to be seniors?

Review of Megan Boyle’s new poetry.

I’ve been struggling with literary criticism. The reviews I’ve written have mostly felt attacky and awkward, as if I’m in the philosophy department arguing about truth, only its literature. This review of Megan Boyle’s new poetry book from Muumuu House on Full-Stop is different, I think. At least its an attempt to write criticism I can feel good about.

What were doing at Times Square

When we all went to Times Square
we didn’t really do much
we stood close to one another
we danced sang chanted screamed

and we stood on the other side
of fences the police put up
but we didn’t break them down
we just looked at the police
and the police looked at us.

This is what we went there to do, I think:
Look at the police together.

One time we were hitting around a beach ball
with 99%! written on it
and it fell into the street
where a bunch of police were standing
and at first the police didn’t look at it
they seemed nervous to get involved
but then one of them smiled and shrugged
and hit the ball back to us.

We cheered and cheered and clapped and laughed
and chanted “YOU SHOULD BE HERE WITH US!!”

That’s what we were doing at Times Square.
That’s why we do anything at all.

US IS THE IS OF THIS POLIS: a poem for Occupy Wall Street

What we demonstrate when we demonstrate
is a logical argument.
It is most logical argument any of us can think of.
We demonstrate that this is our polis,
that we all have power
to make good decisions
and that recently some of us have made poor ones.
We assert a major premise:
US IS THE IS OF THIS POLIS.
And a minor premise:
THIS POLIS HAS DENIED US US.Therefore, our conclusion is
WE WILL BE US.This conclusion is a culture
and culture just is us
all together all over the world.
Every person living life.
So we don’t really have ‘demands’.
But we can generate some little proposals
consistent with our conclusion.

For example:
First, regarding the money civil society gave to its banks.
Its location must be revealed. Where is the gift we gave?
This was a public gift
a gift for all of us.
So we ask that those who received the gift
tell us where it is
and what it was used for.
It is ours too.
$787 billion.
We propose that those of our polis who received the gift
use it to relieve debt throughout the polis
and employment and infrastructure projects
and other reparations for damage done thus far.
Second, regarding future ‘economic crises’
like the one that necessitated the aforementioned gift.
There will be a new court system
that decides whether economic transactions
of a certain size
that affect a certain number of those in the polis
are just or unjust.
It will be an economic court system
with lawyers for both sides
and judges
and a jury of peers
so all the fathers and mothers and children
anywhere in the polis
–which is everywhere, not just here–
can live and grow together well.These are little proposals
and we can make more. So many more.
as many proposals as there are humans being.
Because that’s what we are doing.
We are demonstrating
that we are.

Smartphones

I use a flip phone. My parents recently got smartphones. Droids. Then they got new smartphones. It’s part of the family plan. My mother gave me her old smartphone. She said “here, switch over to this one. I’ll pay for the data plan.”

Data plan.

At first I said no. Then I said yes. Then I looked at my girlfriend. I said no again. I said yes. I said no. My mother rolled her eyes. We were going to Rosh Hashanah services. We wore suits and ties. She said, “We’ll go to the Verizon store after services.”

I stood with the smartphone in my hand. “Okay,” I thought. “This is going to happen eventually and I can’t help it–all my friends have them–and I can use it for various things. Tweeting. I’ll use it to tweet. I have four Twitter accounts. I can pay more attention to them. And getting lost. I won’t get lost. I’ll know where I am. And a calendar. I screw up appointments a lot. This will help me that.”

Then I asked myself, “this is late capitalism, right?”

Then I answered, “Yes. It is.”

I stopped. I decided to do something that cellphones and smartphones have made extremely popular among my peers: I decided to decide later.

I asked a philosopher friend if I should get the smartphone. He said no. Smartphones make you less smart. The capacity for memory, the interest in living questions, the constant (mis)direction of attention away from the present moment–just don’t. You don’t want to mess with that. You’re better without it.

I already have an iPad. I stare at it for hours. Every day. Mostly reading PDFs I download for school. Hobbes, Plato, Foucault, etc. This week it’s Adam Smith.

I see people walking down the street on their smartphones. I see them eating dinner, the smartphone sitting in front of them next to their food. I see them playing games on their smartphones on the train. Reading the newspaper. Checking email. Facebook. The New York Times. The best tweeters I know couldn’t do what they do without a smartphone. Richard Nash. Andy Carvin. Also Maud Newton made this connection: ancient humans used to carry smartphone-sized tablets with poetry and scripture carved into them. In Cuneiform.

Smartrocks.

I can see them walking around in cloaks and sandals with their faces hunched over their smartrocks after written language became vogue. The people that thought too much probably got nervous and talked with their friends about what they should do. Should we trust writing? Should we trust these scratches that everyone in the market is staring at? What will happen to our memory? What will happen to the truth of voice, of sound, of memory? Plato wrote a whole Socratic dialogue about it called Phaedrus.

Then he will not seriously incline to “write” his thoughts “in water” with pen and ink, sowing words which can neither speak for themselves nor teach the truth adequately to others?

Should I trust this smartphone that can neither speak for itself nor teach the truth adequately to others?

Marshall McLuhan says media technologies are ablated mental states. It’s like a slice of my mind fell onto the table one day after breakfast and kept doing whatever it was doing when it was in my brain. It turned into writing, a telegraph, a telephone, a television, a computer. When I stare at the computer and write it’s like when people used to sit and think about Homer’s poetry. Now I can hold whatever was happening there in my hand. I can push its buttons.

Obsessing with technology is just self-obsessing. It’s narcissistic. But it’s just like any mental state. I have the option to be well-disposed towards it. If I get angry when I’m walking because I hate when people pull their dogs while they’re trying to pee, and I obsess over that anger, it’ll consume me. It’ll ruin my day. It’ll make me be a jerk to the dog-owner, who might need a gentle reminder, sure, but not my sass. Other people don’t deserve shitty treatment because I can’t deal with myself in a non-shitty way. Same with smartphones.

We’ve been dealing with this problem for a long time. How do I treat myself well around other people? How do I not become obsessed? How do I reach a balanced happiness? How do I lead a good life? Etc.

Will a smartphone lead to a good life? I don’t know yet. The smartphone arrived  like anything else from the universe. A stubbed toe. My father’s laughter. A death in the family. A political debate. A fungus on my little finger. A love poem.  Do any of these lead to a good life?

They’re just life, I think. What makes a good life is a good me in life. Can I be a good me in life with a smartphone? I hope so.

Yesterday morning I woke up and my phone wasn’t on. I always leave it on to wake me up in the morning because I don’t trust myself to wake up at the right time without it. I tried to turn it on. It gave me a message:

“Please use genuine battery power or phone will shut down.”

Then it gave me a count-down. 10 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1. Then it turned off. It did the same thing when I tried it again. I spent the day without a phone. I panicked. I went to the Verizon store after I inadvertently stood a friend up for lunch.  They said it was water damage. That I’d have to get a new phone. They asked me, “Do you have a phone we can transfer your information to?”

I said, “Yes. I have a smartphone.”